As often as possible, we try to use this blog space to feature pieces written by domestic violence survivors. The following poem was written by Molly (not her real name) to describe how she felt when struggling with domestic violence and substance use. Today Molly is living on her own, has regained custody of her kids, and has been sober for over a year. We share this piece to honor the journey she has been on and the road she will continue to walk…
Cold Misery
Lately, she’s become so self-destructive and ultimately,
Self defeated
From holding onto little dark secrets
Where you will hear the most silent-but-deadly
Kind of screaming
Suffering inside her shell after being severely beaten
It’s so scary how one simple smile can be the start
Of a fire to everything
Something so severe, it’s become so serious,
Now it’s only about surviving
It’s when scars keep cutting, but nobody can
hear her desperate call of crying
It’s when her tears are tainted and tortured
They’re becoming too tired to keep trying
Interrupted by the demons of drugs
She has so deliberately been denying
Disturbed by this downhill she continues
To keep on climbing
That’s led her so low, she’s manipulating, deceiving, and lying
She knows the drugs won’t change, and neither will he
So why can’t she find the right kind of help
To finally break free
Why can’t she kick
The company of
Cold Misery
If you or someone you know is feeling like this because of abuse in a relationship, help is available by calling our hotline at 1.800.899.4000.